My Writing

I wrote many excerpts during high school, the days of dreaming , heartaches and tears. I felt as if I was in an everlasting nightmare seeking to escape. I wrote in order to escape reality and afterwards I would feel relax and I could tackle the world once more. I know I’m not a good writer which is evident in all the mistakes in my writing. However, my aim isn’t to become an author or journalist, I write to express my most intimate feelings from the bottom of my heart which is quite difficult. I have closed my heart from the world for a long time and writing is encouraging me to speak from my heart. When I have a heart to heart conversation where I voice my inner feelings, tears stream from my eyes. It’s an area which I rarely access and share with anybody in this world. I have closed off my heart fearing if I expose my heart to the world inevitably somebody would shatter my heart.

Relationships

Assuming relationships are what you make of it...

I guess I make relationships end and it's my fault that relationships end.
It's also my fault that I am bitter in the end.
It's my fault that guys leave me.

=S

fml... not really I need to buy more ice cream and chocolate.

He's Just Not That Into You

One of my favourite section from he's just not that into you.

I used to think that I had
never been dumped


Yeah, then we started comparing notes.


Then we realized we've both been dumped
by every man we've ever been with.


- Every one.
- Yeah.


- But they do it so skillfully.
- Mm-hm.


They just so sneaky
that you think it was your idea.


Yeah. You're sitting back
and you're like:


"Oh, yeah. This my idea.
But wait a second, why am I alone?"


"Why am I unhappy?
Why have I gained 20 pounds?"


- They Jedi mind-trick you.
- Yes, they do.


- So they do a soft pass.
- Yeah.


They got little lines they like to tell you.


Like, "I don't wanna stand in your way."


Or, "You're perfect,
it's just I have to work on myself."


Right. "I'm just thinking
of your happiness."


"Oh, I don't deserve you."
That's my favorite one.


You know the other one I like?


"I am so jealous of the guy
who gets to marry you."


- Well, that could have been you.
- Yeah.


That's what I was leaning towards.


Yeah. And the second you hear that...


run to the store, get yourself some ribs
and some ice cream

because you have been dumped




MORAL OF THE STORY: BOYS ARE MONSTERSSSSSSSSS

List of Fails 13/09/10

- Drinking a large cappuccino and it has no effect!

M: I eat teddy bears
S: Teddy bears aren't even tasty
M: How do you know?
*pwn*

-Buying a bag of hot chips and end up with 40 ml of excess tomato sauce

D: Are you Japanese, Chinese, Thai?
M: I'm Swedish
D: no serious, where are your parents from?
M: I'm serious.. my parents are from Swedland.

I hope this makes somebody's day. =)

The Promise

This is something I promised myself

Dear world,
I am going to cry my eyes out tonight and tomorrow
I am going to wake up and smile like there's no tomorrow.

I am going to promise myself that I will try harder and find my happiness.

I won't let little setbacks in life bring me down and I won't let you to continue hurting my feelings.

I am going to become independent and let my little light shine.

Top 25 Songs

Sharing my list of top 25 most played

1. Lady Gaga- eh, eh (Nothing Else I can Say)
2. Fahrenheit- Yue Lai Yue Ai ( Love You More)
3. Gnarls Barkley- Crazy
4. Guns N' Roses- Knockin' On Heavens Door
5. Brown Eyed Girls - My Style
6. Corrine Bailey Rae - Put Your Records On
7. Ariel Lin - Your Flavour
8. Ariel Lin - Sweet Garden
9. Atomic Kittens - Eternal Flame
10. Chris Brown - Say Goodbye
11. Color- Mr Right
12. Craig David - Walking Away
13. Craig David - Officially Yours
14. Cydni Wang - Rainbow Smile
15. Guns N' Roses - Since I Don't Have You
16. Gyroscope - Australia
17. Jam Hsiao - Princess
18. Jam Hsiao - Love Too Far
19. Jason Mraz - I'm Yours
20. Jennifer Lopez - All I have
21. Jesse Mc Cartney - She's No You
22. Neyo - Because of You
23. Rainie Yang - Mars
24. Tammin Sursok- Whatever Will Be
25. Rain - Why

Perfect

To me, you're perfect.
You told me that you're not perfect and that I need to stop seeing as Mr Perfect in order to move on.
I would disagree, the only way I can move on is by realising that I can't be with Mr Perfect.
I have come to accept that you're in a relationship and no longer feel that way towards me.
Even if we did continue, it would have been extremely difficult.
We live in two different states and see each other 1/52 weeks per year at most.
There's nothing I can say nor do to change back time nor the situation.
On that note, I will always love you because to me you'll always be perfect.