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You are a loser.
I treated you as a friend and I was stupid to believe you were my friend.
Bloody hell, just bloody grow up and stop talking behind my back.
You demand that people don't talk to you behind your back then why would you do that to others.
Calling other people names will not boost your self esteem.
You are always acting as if you are the victim.
Grow up, people get hurt all the time but we all gather ourselves and start over.
You always say you are so tired, well you are so tired all day long because you are a bloody couch potato.
Maybe if you got up and about and do something you wouldn't feel so tired all the time.

It was a my mistake to consider you as my friend.
For all the times I stuck up for you and you simply treat me as dirt.
You are not worth my time or attention any more.

P.S you cooking sucks. I hate eating deep fried everything.

Maybe This Time

I'm silly.
I thought that maybe if I just saw you, thinks will simply just work out.
We will either fall madly in love again or the complete opposite, you will completely crush my heart and tell me in person that there's nothing left.
But, either way, it was a risk I was willingly to take.
I didn't sit around, listening to break up songs and holding onto hope if it does not exist.

While I was busy organizing the trip, suddenly reality kicked in.

You don't need me around anymore, you only spoke to me during your difficult times last year because your girlfriend at that time rejected you.
Overnight, I simply became the rebound girl.
I was there for you when you felt like crying and wanted somebody to talk to.
You said you wanted to cut her out of your life and I was silly enough to believe you.
Almost 1 year since you two first went out an attempt was made to keep in contact.
Maybe that's why you have lost interest in me because now she's back into your life.
Now this way you can spend more time on "other commitments" and I sure as hell know that those "other commitments" don't include me.

I really wish things could work out to a point where I was just fooling myself.
Maybe, you already knew that there's no future ahead for us.
I'm sorry for placing you in an uncomfortable position.
I now know that there's no place for me in your world and I will slowly fade away.

Last Day On Earth

What would you do if today was the last day on earth?

Would you spend every waking moment doing things you have always wanted to do?

Or would you spend your time, preparing your final words or your will.

If today was my last day on earth, I would gather all my family and friends and throw a massive party. First we’ll enjoy a nice drink, cheesecake and Lindt chocolate at the Lindt café, sharing my silly moments.

In the afternoon, we’ll visit an all you can eat place that serves Korean, Japanese, Italian, Vietnamese and Greek food. I would demand that everybody try a slice of raw salmon and drink bubble tea.

After lunch, I would screen clips of my favourite movie and television show and play games of laser tag. After all the fun activities, for dinner, we’ll have a BBQ and Hotpot. Now it’s time to pull out the vodka. For desserts, we’ll have MANY different flavours of ICE CREAM.

After dinner, we’ll start with a speech on how I lived and loved to be remembered. I will welcome everybody to write down one thing they loved about me, miss about me and their favourite moment with me in a leather bounded book and to be taken care of by the love of my life.

Before the end, I will excuse myself from the centre of attention and spend the last moment with the love of my life.
I will tell him, I have loved him from the day we fell in love until the end of my time. I wish him good luck with the rest of his life and remind him that I will always be by his side.

Dear Mr Silver Hard Drive

Dear Mr Silver Hard Drive,
What happened to you? I thought we had a good thing going.
Every week, I will update you with new video and files.
You've never disappeared out of my sight before.
I know, I have caused a few injuries but they were only accidents. I never meant for you to get hurt.
Please Mr Silver Hard Drive, come home, where you belong.
You know you belong to me.

Love Melly.

Conversation on Happiness

While I was busy sipping on my coconut drink, my mum started talking about happiness.
She said that in life we shouldn't dwell on sadness and it's best to have a positive mindset.
She also said that out of my sisters and I, my younger sister is the "happiest".
I smiled and replied that's because she's easily pleased.
I have never seen anybody eyes light up when I hand them a piece of chocolate or cookie.
I don't believe that anybody is "happier" than somebody else.
I believe it really depends on find what makes them happy.
For my sister, her happiness comes in eating the food she likes.
While others are still searching for that special something that makes them extremely happy.

Dr Jones

Dear my Dr Jones,

Sometimes the feeling is right,
you fall in love for the first time,
Heartbeat and kisses so sweet
summertime love in the moonlight,

You're my first love and I cherish every moment I spent with you.
I still recall our first kiss, it was a sweet moment.

Now the summer is gone,
you had to go back home
please come and see me again,
I never felt more alone.

I hope during your busy schedule next year that you would still find time to talk to this silly girl and perhaps visit this silly girl.

Baby I am missing you
I want you by my side
and I hope you'll miss me too
Come back and stay
I think about you every day

I hope you are taking care of yourself.

I really want you too
You swept my feet right off the ground
You're the love I found
Doctor Jones, Jones
Calling doctor jones.

Who am I kidding when I try to find somebody to replace you.
You are irreplaceable, I love you so dearly that I can't compare you to anybody.

All I think of is you
and all the things we had
doctor what can I do
why does it have to be like that

There's no point dwelling on past events.
The bad things happened for a reason.
Sometimes I'm good that they happened, it has allowed to communicate effectively.

Melbourne Christmas 2010

This Christmas was just another excuse to relax and enjoy eating food.
The Christmas celebrations commenced with a small Christmas party where we exchanged gifts, watched movies and enjoy good food. The Christmas party ended with myself and two friends finishing off a Safeway mudcake. After eating a quarter of the cake, it didn't feel like Christmas in my stomach anymore.

Over the next following days, there were more Christmas gatherings, more eating, more sitting around and talking.
In between the Christmas gathering, I also visited shopping centres to take advantage of their extended Christmas trading hours. I also did a lot of shopping around.

My favourite part of Christmas besides spending time catching up with family and friends and the awesome Christmas atmosphere has to be BOXING DAY SALES!

This year I only managed to pick up two items from the sales a new dress and a cropped jacket. =)