Quicky Update

*P.S This entry was suppose to be posted on Weds 14th of May

well I know nobody reads my blog expect maybe 1 person but that's because I make that person read it.



Wednesday 14th of May.

Today there are at least 2 people living in my local area who are celebrating their birthday. It's amazing, one year has past yet it seems as if little has been achieved. However, I have grown in more ways since last year. I would like to share a poem I wrote about a year ago.



Falling Out of Love



It’s times like these you know that you just have to leave.

No point in continuing to pursue a relationship that just won’t work no matter how hard you try and all the effort you put in.

It may seem like I am giving up but actually I am accepting that this won’t work.

The longer I allow myself to love you, the longer I will have to endure the heartache and disappointment.

I am not going to cry because I don’t have you.

I will smile for I have met some one like you.

My days from this point won’t be a fabulous as it used to be however over time it will improve.

I might never find a boy like you but I am determined to find one that loves me more than you. In my heart that’s where you shall be just like all the other boys I have loved before you.

The only thing that I will keep from this relationship is all the times we spent together.

All the smiles, laughter, tears and heartache will one day seem like a lifetime ago from today.

Our relationship will not end with a tear or a goodbye.

Our relationship will end when we both find our happiness.

Goodbye, my lover.

For I have found my happiness that is witnessing the beauties of this world.

Goodbye until we meet again.



Here's something I wrote today



A Year Ago,

Many months spent holding onto the feelings kept telling myself I should let go.

Never truly released the pain and memories until today.

Many plans constructed and many failed along the way.

Too afraid of pain, the fear held me back from restarting.

Restarting wasn't as simple as clicking a few buttons, it was learning to place memories in their rightful place and accepting the broken pieces.

A fresh start was just around the corner, neglicted, for fear was much stronger.

Another 12 months, another 52 weeks, another 356 days have past.

The numbers grow greater, the love shrinks and the distance grows greater.

Today, a year one, I have grown in many ways, too bad you couldn't see the changes.