Conversation on Happiness

While I was busy sipping on my coconut drink, my mum started talking about happiness.
She said that in life we shouldn't dwell on sadness and it's best to have a positive mindset.
She also said that out of my sisters and I, my younger sister is the "happiest".
I smiled and replied that's because she's easily pleased.
I have never seen anybody eyes light up when I hand them a piece of chocolate or cookie.
I don't believe that anybody is "happier" than somebody else.
I believe it really depends on find what makes them happy.
For my sister, her happiness comes in eating the food she likes.
While others are still searching for that special something that makes them extremely happy.

Dr Jones

Dear my Dr Jones,

Sometimes the feeling is right,
you fall in love for the first time,
Heartbeat and kisses so sweet
summertime love in the moonlight,

You're my first love and I cherish every moment I spent with you.
I still recall our first kiss, it was a sweet moment.

Now the summer is gone,
you had to go back home
please come and see me again,
I never felt more alone.

I hope during your busy schedule next year that you would still find time to talk to this silly girl and perhaps visit this silly girl.

Baby I am missing you
I want you by my side
and I hope you'll miss me too
Come back and stay
I think about you every day

I hope you are taking care of yourself.

I really want you too
You swept my feet right off the ground
You're the love I found
Doctor Jones, Jones
Calling doctor jones.

Who am I kidding when I try to find somebody to replace you.
You are irreplaceable, I love you so dearly that I can't compare you to anybody.

All I think of is you
and all the things we had
doctor what can I do
why does it have to be like that

There's no point dwelling on past events.
The bad things happened for a reason.
Sometimes I'm good that they happened, it has allowed to communicate effectively.

Melbourne Christmas 2010

This Christmas was just another excuse to relax and enjoy eating food.
The Christmas celebrations commenced with a small Christmas party where we exchanged gifts, watched movies and enjoy good food. The Christmas party ended with myself and two friends finishing off a Safeway mudcake. After eating a quarter of the cake, it didn't feel like Christmas in my stomach anymore.

Over the next following days, there were more Christmas gatherings, more eating, more sitting around and talking.
In between the Christmas gathering, I also visited shopping centres to take advantage of their extended Christmas trading hours. I also did a lot of shopping around.

My favourite part of Christmas besides spending time catching up with family and friends and the awesome Christmas atmosphere has to be BOXING DAY SALES!

This year I only managed to pick up two items from the sales a new dress and a cropped jacket. =)

Nice Randoms

Today,

1. Random Tram Driver
I called one of my workmate and asked where she was so we can walk to work together.
She told me that she was 10 minutes away from the tram stop, so I sat on the bench and waited for my friend.
Out of the blue, a tram driver approached me and asked me which tram I planned to catch. I replied that I was waiting for my friend.
The tram driver asked me if I was on school holidays and when they started.
He told me that he only has 1 week off for Christmas and he applied for 2 weeks off since Feb this year and his boss told me to apply again next year.
He was nice and kept me company, until he realise that his break time was over and it was time to head back and drive the tram. =D

2. Random Guy
After work, I usually catch the train home.
I clearly made it to the barriers after a guy, however, he was nice and offered me to get into the station before him.
=D

The moral of the story, be nice to people and it'll make their day.

Crazy People

There are some crazy ass bitches in this world. You would think that since our society is more educated the number of bogans would decrease and the number of loud, angry people would decrease as well. Sadly it doesn't.

Yesterday, my friends and I went into Safeway.
Some lady accidently ran into my friend with a broken shopping basket.
She apologised on the spot (which was polite and the right thing to do).
After that my friend and I stood aside in one of the isles and I noticed he was bleeding.
Naturally, whenever I see somebody bleeding, I would tell them; "you're bleeding."
That crazy, angry lady walked past and heard "you're bleeding".
In the middle of Safeway she yelled, "stop trying to make me feel bad, I already apologised and it was an accident."
Bitch! What's your problem?
I am entitled to tell my friend that he's bleeding and if you cared you would give him a bandaid since he's bleeding.
I didn't say you did anything wrong and I'm not trying to make you feel bad.
If I wanted to make you feel bad, you would have been in tears by now.
Besides, I know that accidents happen so what's your problem?
In conclusion, there are some crazy angry people which make this world suck!

epic fail

Fuck you,
For many years of my life you have neglected me. I walked this path alone.
Along the way, you have insulted with your harsh words, you never encouraged me and never believed in me. You made me believe that I was a pathetic piece of shit on the side of the road. I believe it so, to the extent I wanted to move away from everything and end everything. I have no self esteem, I believed that I had no strengths and I only had possessed weakness.
I always thought that nothing good will ever come my way.

Whenever I made a slight achievement, you would always find ways to slander it, you would always say that you're not that special and it's not that hard to achieve or you would compare to others.

I know that I am a disappointment, I never achieved extremely high results at school.
I know I am not the prettiest girl; not the slimmist and I don't have perfect skin.
But I never took drugs, I never binge drink.
I don't ask you for money and I work part time to support my own personal spending.
But why must you still believe that I am a disappointment?
Am I that pathetic? That I don't realise I'm that pathetic.
If I am, tell me how to change.
I thought I was immune to your constant insults but I'm not. It still cuts me on the inside.

I will promise you that one day, I'll make a great contribution to this society.
I'll move out into the big wide world and make myself useful.
I promise I won't do anything to disappoint you anymore.
I'm sorry for being the biggest disappointment in your life.

Buttermilk Pancakes!

I just finished my exams and I decided to do something useful with my time.
I got up at 7 am in the morning just to make BUTTERMILK PANCAKES!
I followed taste.com.au buttermilk pancakes minus the strawberries.

Ingredients
1/2 cup of caster sugar
1/2 cup of bicarbonate soda
2 cup of self raising flour
600 ml of buttermilk
2 eggs

List of Numbers I Reject

Here's a list of numbers I reject from my mobile as they are telemarketing.
Everytime a telemarketer calls me on my mobile, I save their number so I remember to reject them next time they call.

0888 888
02 8217 1579
02 8217 1570
02 8217 1566
07 5512 1013

Unbeautiful

Recently I have been spending more time away from home.
As my social network begins to expand, I begin to feel less pretty.
I am friends with some of the most gorgeous ladies.
In return, I begin to feel like the ugly duckling.
These day, I am spending less time thinking about what clothes to wear and less time clothes shopping.
Why the change?
Now, it's approaching the stage where I would ask my sisters to match my clothes for me. I feel like a loser. '(
These days all I wear are jeans and a plain T-shirt.
Maybe I'm spending too much time hanging around boys at uni.. maybe I am starting to act like one. ='(


Sometimes, we see pictures of people we know of facebook and they look absolutely flawless. Sadly, majority of them wear make up.
Everyday, I wake up and I don't apply make up because it feels unnatural.
I rather look like an ugly duckling then apply make up.
Is it shallow to think that make up is an essential for being beautiful?
Why can't one look beautiful without wearing make up?

What's the moral of the story?
It's time for a SHOPPING SPREE!

Chocolate Sandwich

I am sure I have again 5 kg this week.
I bought a packet of chocolate melts/ buttons and I have been using it to make chocolate sandwich.
Here's my recipe

1. Toast the sandwich
2. Cover the sandwich with chocolate melts
3. Microwave the sandwich for 30-50 seconds.

I love it because it's so simple and easy!

Job Hunting

I am working at a cafe and my employer is currently underpaying me.
My employer pays all employees in cash and hence, avoid paying tax.
I have provided my employer with my tax details over a month ago and I am still not on the payroll.

Hence, I am in the search of a new job.
I have applied for a local cafe near my university and now I am going to apply for my local grocery store.
I just feel as if all my friends have better jobs compared to me.
I feel as if I am working and running around like a dog and I am receiving bacon fat.
='(
I feel depressed right now. I'm going to eat chocolate now.
I hope everything works out for me.

My Writing

I wrote many excerpts during high school, the days of dreaming , heartaches and tears. I felt as if I was in an everlasting nightmare seeking to escape. I wrote in order to escape reality and afterwards I would feel relax and I could tackle the world once more. I know I’m not a good writer which is evident in all the mistakes in my writing. However, my aim isn’t to become an author or journalist, I write to express my most intimate feelings from the bottom of my heart which is quite difficult. I have closed my heart from the world for a long time and writing is encouraging me to speak from my heart. When I have a heart to heart conversation where I voice my inner feelings, tears stream from my eyes. It’s an area which I rarely access and share with anybody in this world. I have closed off my heart fearing if I expose my heart to the world inevitably somebody would shatter my heart.

Relationships

Assuming relationships are what you make of it...

I guess I make relationships end and it's my fault that relationships end.
It's also my fault that I am bitter in the end.
It's my fault that guys leave me.

=S

fml... not really I need to buy more ice cream and chocolate.

He's Just Not That Into You

One of my favourite section from he's just not that into you.

I used to think that I had
never been dumped


Yeah, then we started comparing notes.


Then we realized we've both been dumped
by every man we've ever been with.


- Every one.
- Yeah.


- But they do it so skillfully.
- Mm-hm.


They just so sneaky
that you think it was your idea.


Yeah. You're sitting back
and you're like:


"Oh, yeah. This my idea.
But wait a second, why am I alone?"


"Why am I unhappy?
Why have I gained 20 pounds?"


- They Jedi mind-trick you.
- Yes, they do.


- So they do a soft pass.
- Yeah.


They got little lines they like to tell you.


Like, "I don't wanna stand in your way."


Or, "You're perfect,
it's just I have to work on myself."


Right. "I'm just thinking
of your happiness."


"Oh, I don't deserve you."
That's my favorite one.


You know the other one I like?


"I am so jealous of the guy
who gets to marry you."


- Well, that could have been you.
- Yeah.


That's what I was leaning towards.


Yeah. And the second you hear that...


run to the store, get yourself some ribs
and some ice cream

because you have been dumped




MORAL OF THE STORY: BOYS ARE MONSTERSSSSSSSSS

List of Fails 13/09/10

- Drinking a large cappuccino and it has no effect!

M: I eat teddy bears
S: Teddy bears aren't even tasty
M: How do you know?
*pwn*

-Buying a bag of hot chips and end up with 40 ml of excess tomato sauce

D: Are you Japanese, Chinese, Thai?
M: I'm Swedish
D: no serious, where are your parents from?
M: I'm serious.. my parents are from Swedland.

I hope this makes somebody's day. =)

The Promise

This is something I promised myself

Dear world,
I am going to cry my eyes out tonight and tomorrow
I am going to wake up and smile like there's no tomorrow.

I am going to promise myself that I will try harder and find my happiness.

I won't let little setbacks in life bring me down and I won't let you to continue hurting my feelings.

I am going to become independent and let my little light shine.

Top 25 Songs

Sharing my list of top 25 most played

1. Lady Gaga- eh, eh (Nothing Else I can Say)
2. Fahrenheit- Yue Lai Yue Ai ( Love You More)
3. Gnarls Barkley- Crazy
4. Guns N' Roses- Knockin' On Heavens Door
5. Brown Eyed Girls - My Style
6. Corrine Bailey Rae - Put Your Records On
7. Ariel Lin - Your Flavour
8. Ariel Lin - Sweet Garden
9. Atomic Kittens - Eternal Flame
10. Chris Brown - Say Goodbye
11. Color- Mr Right
12. Craig David - Walking Away
13. Craig David - Officially Yours
14. Cydni Wang - Rainbow Smile
15. Guns N' Roses - Since I Don't Have You
16. Gyroscope - Australia
17. Jam Hsiao - Princess
18. Jam Hsiao - Love Too Far
19. Jason Mraz - I'm Yours
20. Jennifer Lopez - All I have
21. Jesse Mc Cartney - She's No You
22. Neyo - Because of You
23. Rainie Yang - Mars
24. Tammin Sursok- Whatever Will Be
25. Rain - Why

Perfect

To me, you're perfect.
You told me that you're not perfect and that I need to stop seeing as Mr Perfect in order to move on.
I would disagree, the only way I can move on is by realising that I can't be with Mr Perfect.
I have come to accept that you're in a relationship and no longer feel that way towards me.
Even if we did continue, it would have been extremely difficult.
We live in two different states and see each other 1/52 weeks per year at most.
There's nothing I can say nor do to change back time nor the situation.
On that note, I will always love you because to me you'll always be perfect.

yay I'm dreaming again

You left me with no love and no hope to my name.
However, this morning I became imagining that I was moving on with my life.
I pictured myself engaging in a steady relationship with another person who I completely adore.
It made me realise that there's still hope out there.
A guy who was completely nice and thoughtful.
A guy who has a high IQ and hardworking.
A guy who everybody adores and only adores me!
... the remotely sad part was he was in my dreams.

However, this is a good sign!
I am slowly moving on in my own little way.
I must believe that there's somebody out there for me.
Somehow we'll find each other amongst all this craziness that exist in this world.
We all know that at the end of the day nobody dwells in sadness.

FOOD Diary

Monday
Lunch:
Just a plain cheese sandwich
4 sweet chili rice cakes
1/2 a hedgehog

Dinner:
Creamy corn and chicken soup
Broccoli and chicken

Tuesday:
Lunch:
2 Sweet chili rice cakes
Subway Meatball sandwich with all the salad, sweet chili and chili sauce.
1 Oreo
Honey and Lemon Tea

Dinner:
Cold toasted cheese sandwich

I have decided to trim the fat in my diet for the past few days, I have been consuming a lot of junk food. I really couldn't be bothered making my lunch in the morning and I just went out and bought food.
I think I'm going to allow myself to eat out once a week.
Hopefully, I can trim some fat out of my diet.
=)

Train Rant

It's close to impossible to start over.
We've been together for a long time, it's almost as if I have built my life around you.
You're the only one I want to spend my future with.
There are many variables in life, I used to believe that no you're not the variable in the equation instead, a constant.
I wholeheartly believed that you will be my side through thick and thin and you would refuse to leave me.
However, somewhere along the way I must of calculated incorrectly.

Now, you're gone. There's nothing I can say or do to change that.
You treat me as if I am a disease you spend majority of your timw avoiding me.

Damn, it's really over now, somehow I am unable to accept that. I try so hard to absorb all the tear before they have a chance to trickle.
Everytime I reflect I feel like a pathetic loser; an unwanted disease.

*sigh*
I don't want to think about this anymore. I want to escape!

Cheer Up!

M says:
hahah yeah
I fail at relationships

j says:
awww... dont wori
you'll get a HD next time
or a P!!!
PERFECT

;)

Random Ramblings

From a young age, we’re all taught that if we have a dream, we should work hard towards achieving it and never give up. However, our parents, teachers and guardian neglect to educate us about reality. The truth is sometimes our dreams don’t come true despite all our efforts. Honestly, at times we are all powerless and we have no choice but to let live.

Life is unpredictable and it has its moments. Sometimes life can lure us into a false sense of security. After graduating from university and finding a job that pays well, we might undertake a lifestyle change. Nobody is immune to the surprises life throws, however, at the end of the day, we’ll pull through. It’s almost as if we’re genetically designed to survive after any crash and burn.

Cute Guy

Sometimes we just can't judge a book by this cover...

I was heading home and there was a guy who sat on top the back rest of the bench.
He had long hair that covered his face.
He appeared like a rebel however, inside he's a cute guy.
He placed his guitar on the bench and it took up majority of the bench.
He noticed an old lady approaching and he removed his guitar off the bench and offered her a seat.
The old lady said that it's fine, he didn't have to.
He replied " respect your elders, that's what my mum taught me"
gah! That's sooo cute coming from a +20 year old.

With A Heavy Heart

When you told me, you were going to date her. You broke my heart and shattered it into a million pieces. You keep calling, messaging me, and keep telling me that you still care about me... well, if you did care about my feelings then you wouldn't date her. I don't want to be your second best nor your back up plan when your relationships fail. I want you to chose me and most importantly, love me. I want you to stay by my side and never leave me. I want you to love and cherish me. Because having you by my side makes me smile because I'm happy. Being with you, I felt like a princess and that we are the only two people living in this world. If life was a television, I want to pause time all the time we spent together.

I have grown up with you by my side and I still want to grow old with you. You made me believe we can grow old together, however, that's in the past.

Now, it's time for me to face the truth, you don't want to be with me anymore.
All the dreams we shared of the future will not have a chance to take place.
I'm living in limbo, in my dreams you'll find it in your heart to love me and yearn to be with me.

However, in reality, you have already moved on.
I guess, it's time for me to accept things; I don't belong to you and you don't belong to me anymore.
If this is true love, it will reveal itself over time.
If it's meant to be, it'll always be.
With a heavy heart, I wish you good luck with your new partner.

I am Missing You

Dear you,
I miss you.
Love M

Maybe It's Time To Face The Truth

Day and night, I keep fantasising that one day we'll meet in the middle.
We are no longer at different stages of our lives, we have both completed university
and both have a secure job. We're both looking to settle down.
To me, you're perfect.
It's time for me to accept that we need to move on.
That means I would need to stop fantasising about us and I would need to stop praying and wishing that one day we'll meet in the middle.
This relationship won't work, we live in two different places, different stages of our lives and we live in two different worlds.
We have tried before, did our best and it wasn't enough to maintain a relationship.
In the future, we will change and there's no guarantee that things will work out.
The truth is we need to move on with your lives and start living once more.
Nobody can predict the future and the events which will occur.
But I do bid that we would both find our own happiness.

Against All The Odds!

I want to believe that in this world, anything is possible.
Even after a break up, two soulmates are able to find each other.
I want to spend some time with you.
I want to regain the passion we once had and I will never let you go again.

Gobi Desert

When the going gets tough, I begin fantasising running away to the Gobi Desert.
It's my only escape from a toxic reality.
I want to live in a place where I don't have to associate with anybody.
To live like an Amish and rely on yourself.
No need to communicate with others and no fights.

I'm done listening to people telling me how bad I am.
Don't you already know I can identify all my flaws and I don't need a constant reminder of how much I fail at life.
I'm done making connections and entering relationship.
What's the point when they always end in the same way... sadness.
Why can't I simply move on and stop dwelling on the past?
Why are humans so smart, yet so dumb at the same time?
Why do we have cures for headaches, muscle pains yet we have no cure for heartache?

I don't want to feel sad anymore and I just want to be happy.
I'm protecting my heart so that nobody will hurt it ever again.

I've given up on relationships.
Why do I need to find a partner?
Why gamble with the status quo?
If I'm happy now, why risk it and enter a relationship?

I don't want to hurt anymore.
That's why I'm not going to put myself in a position where anybody can attack me.

Nostalgia

The theme of this week for me is nostalgia.

Italian Teacher
Currently listening to Anna Tatangelo and missing my sweet sweet Italian teacher.
My Italian teacher always shared her stories with us and always told us that we're beautiful girls.
She inspired us to learn Italian so one day we can travel to Italy and pick up Marco.
Listening to Anna brings back old memories and all the times we laughed during Italian class.
It's teachers like her that made me feel warm and fuzzy during highschool.
She treated us as if we were her own beautiful girls.
She was proud of all our achievements.

That Boy
I have 3 simple words for you.
I love you!

Taste of Childhood
Growing up, I spent a lot of time at my aunt's house.
My aunt grew up in Vietnam and as a result cooked a lot of Vietnamese food.
As a result, I spent most of my childhood eating Vietnamese food.
Recently, I found out one of my local shops sold dried banana.
I love dried banana, I could eat a whole pack by myself.
I loveeee my fish sauce as well.
^^

Games
One of the first game my mum bought for my sisters and I was Connect Four.
We spent hours trying to beat each other and hours inventing new games we could play with the Connect Four pieces.

Oh man,
I miss those things soo dearly.
With every passing day, we are creating more memories for us to cherish in the future.

Which Serial Killer Are You?

I found this quiz online and I would like to share it with everybody.

which serial killer are you? Your Result: the grudge   The Grudge describes a curse that is born when someone dies in the grip of a powerful rage or extreme sorrow The curse gathers in the place where that person died. Those who encounter this murderous supernatural force die and the curse is reborn repeatedly, passed from victim to victim in an endless, growing chain of horror
jason vorhees	 
ed gein	 
chucky	 
freddy kruger	 
which serial killer are you? Quiz Created on GoToQuiz

What Type of Guy Will You Fall For?

You Fall for the Rich and Powerful Type

You're a pretty powerful type yourself, and it's natural that you're looking for your match. You think that a bit of a conflict and drama makes a relationship interesting. You like to butt heads a bit. You truly want to have it all in life, and you expect that your partner has similar goals. You think ambition is sexy. And part of what you want in life is a high status sweetie that you can show off to the world. You won't settle for anything but the best.

What Type Do You Fall For?

Blogthings: We're Not Shrinks, But We Play Them On the Internet

Thermodynamics

Dear Thermodynamics,
Please do me a favour and go ahead and commit suicide.
ahkjhrusaheuawsa sa a
I can't do any thermodynamics questions.. they're sooo hard.
='(

Love M

omgggg.... she's such a slut!

Dear engineering guy at uni,
You suck balls!
Why do you keep calling every girl a slut behind her back?
What gives you the right to call a girl a slut?
.. even when she doesn't sleep around.
Before you begin calling other girls a slut, you should examine yourself!
You go around trying to chat up all the girls who study engineering and tell them
you love them.
You spend majority of your time, flirting around and try to get steal hugs and kisses off girls.

Why on earth would you unzip your pants in front of girls for no reason?
That's what strippers do... however, you're not a stripper.
Strippers only take off their clothes because they are paid to do so.

You call your ex love interests a sluts, yet you still chase after them, you have no sense of self respect!
You constantly tell me, how horrible a girl has treated you.
Well take a bloody good look at yourself.
You go around flirting around and try to pick up as much girls as possible...
don't you think your cheap hook ups will hurt your potential partner's feelings?

Stop pitying yourself, grow up and move on.
I'm sick of your constant whining about how this and that girl is a slut...
ESPECIALLY when you're the biggest slut of them all.

*end of rant*

Random Conversation 1

M: ok, I'm going to leave now.
D: good, go leave. Never wanted you.
M: that's not what you said last night!

*D couldn't think of any comebacks. M pwn D.*

Sometimes, in life all we need are little spurts of laughter to remind us to smile and take life easy.

Exposing My Feelings

I have a lot of scrambled thoughts I would like to share.
Life can be so ironic, the single girl helps others fall in love, however, she's single.
Sometimes all we can do is give two people who are interested in each other a little push and let nature do the rest.
Sometimes, I find that I would help others yet I can not help myself.

I always knew that I was quite pessimistic but I never thought it was a big issue.
Recently, a good friend of mine told me, that unless I change I'll never experience warmth in a relationship.
I guess for all this time, I was responsible for ruining the relationship.
Tried so hard to find faults, yet the greatest fault was my attitude.
I have decided, it's time to stop "crushing my optimism" and start living in the light.
I'm not sure how I stop being so negative all the time, but I shall start by thinking positive thoughts and identifying the flaws in my negative thoughts.
Let's face it, nobody in this world is completely stupid and we all have the ability to learn new skills.
Therefore, I can educate myself and I shall not fail.
I shall pass all my assessments and I shall complete my degree.
After completing my degree I shall find work.
I shall one day, I would fall in love.
All I need to do is believe and have faith that all my wishes will come true.
One day I shall change and you can witness my strength.
However, until that day I wish you can remain patience and by my side.

Justin Bieber

Justin Bieber is in town and I'm not going to lie.
I have no idea who he is until this morning.
He's a singer who is a heartthrob.
He's equivalent to Jesse McCartney.

Justin Bieber is currently in Australia and he was suppose to perform in Sydney.
However, his concert was cancelled due to the behaviour of teen girls.
Majority of these girls are roughly twelve to fifteen.

Watching the news this morning, it made me feel old.
I don't even know who the hottest artists are anymore.
Now, I'm older than some of the hottest artists.

D&M

I'm so sick of deep and meaningful thoughts.

I want to...

* have shallow thoughts
* be naive like a little kid.
* eat ice cream after my fish and chips.
* chase after the birds.
* believe that 2+2 = 5
* see things in black or white.
* play games all day long
* get along with everybody
* believe that the moon was a big block of cheese.
* believe that God has all the answers and he's guiding us along our path.

3 months

3 months, that's equivalent to 90 days.
In 3 months time, I'll be on uni break.
Many things could happen and many things would have happened.

The more I mature, I begin to believe that everything happens for a reason.
We lose the ones we love to discover the strength and beauty of love.
We fail challenges to learn from our mistakes.
We experience sadness to discover how precious happiness can be.

You loved me to give me strength and courage and with these, I will become a better person.
You offer these qualities to me knowing one day we shall part and I shall have the strength to continue on.

You told me that you want a break.
I shall treat this as a test.
These next 3 months, shall test the strength of our love.
If you truly love me then you'll find a way back to me.
If you don't love me after 3 months, I can conclude that your love for me was shallow. I have no choice but to stop dreaming about a future with you.
Sometimes, I rather live in delirium than move on an experience nothing but loneliness.

The Truth About Me

1. I have no brains.
2. I don't think before I speak so I get into trouble.
3. I hurt people around me.
4. I'm fat
5. I'm ugly
6. I lie about things.
7. I'm shy
8. I'm insecure
9. I have spend 1/4 of my life hating who I am
10. I think too much about useless things in the past.
11. I like to seek revenge.
12. I have no guts to convert my words into actions.
13. I'm selfish and sometimes I don't give a rats about people.
14. I am most likely to disappoint you
15. I'm a trouble maker by default
16. I used to believe in God for my own benefit
17. I have an ugly heart.
18. Not beautiful on the inside or outside
19. I have no friends and very much a loser
20. Most of the time, I need a good slap over the head.
21. I never say what I mean
22. Sometimes I care about my hip pocket more
23. I'm a very very bad person.
24. I have bad skin; dry skin and uneven skin tones
25. I have freaky, retarded eyes.

In conclusion, I'm an ugly monster who is friendless and ugly on the outside and inside.
Just stay away from me.
Thank you.

Human Error

m says:
*sigh*
honey
I won't leave you
unless you don't ring me!
soon
=P
W says:
hehe

*W gets out mobile and calls M*

md says:
noooo
I meant
diamond ring
silly


Human Error

Monogamous Plain Jane

Recently,
my sweetie bought a book for me while I was in Sydney, Belle De Jour's "GUIDE TO MEN".
I'm not quite sure what he's trying to imply but my guess is I suck at knowing what men like.
All I know about men is they like their beer, sports, food and hot babes.
Also, their greatest weakness in life; getting kicked in the balls.
In the beginning of the book, the author mentions in order to enter a relationship, we must first work out who we are and what we want.

Hi friends!
I'm monogamous Plain Jane. I'm going to date one person for a very long time.
I'll stick by my partner during all his hardships and all his happy moments in life.
I see no need to replace my partner even when he's being a d..k
I think it's simply impossible for me to cheat on my partner.

WHY AM I BLOGGING THIS?
I guess it bugs me that my partner's friends believe I will simply make a new friend at uni and shortly after, develop a relationship with my uni friend.
Well, I guess my partner's friends don't know me that well so they believe I'm better off chasing after another guy compared to my honey bunch.

Take Me As I Am

With each day that passes, our future is changed slightly.
Your life is constantly changing despite sitting back and missing out on opportunities.
What is it that we want out of our life?
Where are we heading?
Is this what we want?
Who will be there for us during all our hardships?
Who do I want to spend the rest of my life with?
Is he really into me?
What if something better comes along?
What about all the things we have dreamed about doing?
Can we afford all the things we want?
The future is a very scary thought.

Syd or Melb

It's been a while, since I have blogged on blogger.
Recently, I have made a discovery about myself.
My blogging habits are similar to my shopping habits.
It's virtually impossible for me to remain faithful to one shop or one blog.
I have blogging committment issues.

On a more personal note, I was in Sydney for the weekend.
For the past few days I have learned to hate cityrail or "cityfail".
Metro> Cityfail!
I won't be surprised if I have put on weight because all I have been doing for the past few days is eating and walking around the place.

Question of the Week: Do you like Sydney or Melbourne more?
I'm not quite sure.
Melbourne and Sydney both have it's charms.
There are more trees in the outer suburbs in Sydney.
The weather doesn't pms like Melbourne.
Apparently, the love of my life is in Sydney. =P

I like Melbourne's CBD and how everything it organised.
I like the metro now.
Majority of my family is in Melbourne.
Better Clothing Shops.
=)