Who knew that you'll be my partner today?
Probably God
What if I am not what you're looking for?
Impossible, he isn't looking for you. He wants you. He would love you unconditionally. Even if, your breathe stinks, you fart constantly and you were the ugliest girl in the world.
What if you're not what I'm looking for?
Impossible, you would love him unconditionally. In the future, you will learn to love him, regardless. You would love him even though he will forget to call you and reply to all your messages on facebook.
What if this was all just a sweet dream which has no place in reality?
If it was simply a sweet dream, it was a dream that was worthwhile.
What if I like you but don't want to be with you?
Then he's just stupid for not wanting you.
What if you like me and I don't like you?
Impossible, you guys already act like an old married couple.
What if I like you and you don't like me?
It's a risk worth taking!
What if we have a communication problem?
Every relationship will at one stage have communication problems and it's up to the couple to sort out these relationship problems.
What if you fall in love with somebody else?
Yes, you will fall in love with somebody else, your little kids.
What if you only like the idea of me as a person?
If he likes the idea of you then he will like you.. stupid!
What if I only like the idea of you as a person?
Read the answer to the question above.
What if you don't think I'm pretty?
Through his eyes you're beautiful even if you're old and saggy.
What if you don't think I'm smart enough?
He won't mind, he's not smart himself. =P
What if we hate each other?
You will hate each other at the beginning and gradually fall madly in love with each other.
What if nothing happens between us?
Then nothing happens between us... duh!
What if we are not fated to meet?
When why are you going to meet each other... duh!
What if I'm not the one?
Who else will be the one stupid!
So what if you're not the one, you can be his love not his one. =P
Answering all these questions makes me feel stupid. =)
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Tuesday, September 1, 2009
Thursday, June 18, 2009
Anticipation
We have talked about our highs and lows and shared a piece of our daily life for almost three years. However, it seems as if I have known you my whole life.
Talking to you; I see my past, my present and my future.
A past with my irreversible mistakes, a present which I hope to survive in order to spend my future with you.
Looking back,my memory is flooded with all the different conversations we had.
I remember it was roughly 12 months ago, you told me you feared your life is going to end soon.
I remember all the emotions I felt when you told me and eventually, I cried.
I cried because I never had a chance to meet you and I can not imagine my life without you.
Your nurturing nature and your words of wisdom has assisted me in the past.
Who knew that you'll be my partner today?
I never would have imagined it but this just shows life is full of twist and turns.
I am glad, I did enter the forum before you left.
I am glad after all this time we still talk.
I am thankful that I have found somebody who cares and loves me.
I just feel as if everything between has been a sweet dream.
Within a few days, I will finally meet you in person.
I am nervous.
What if I am not what you're looking for?
What if you're not what I'm looking for?
What if this was all just a sweet dream which has no place in reality?
What if I like you but don't want to be with you?
What if you like me and I don't like you?
What if I like you and you don't like me?
What if we have a communication problem?
What if you fall in love with somebody else?
What if you only like the idea of me as a person?
What if I only like the idea of you as a person?
What if you don't think I'm pretty?
What if you don't think I'm smart enough?
What if we hate each other?
What if nothing happens between us?
What if we are not fated to meet?
What if I'm not the one?
I would love to disregard the what if, however, I know these what if either make or break relationships.
I'm just scared.
Talking to you; I see my past, my present and my future.
A past with my irreversible mistakes, a present which I hope to survive in order to spend my future with you.
Looking back,my memory is flooded with all the different conversations we had.
I remember it was roughly 12 months ago, you told me you feared your life is going to end soon.
I remember all the emotions I felt when you told me and eventually, I cried.
I cried because I never had a chance to meet you and I can not imagine my life without you.
Your nurturing nature and your words of wisdom has assisted me in the past.
Who knew that you'll be my partner today?
I never would have imagined it but this just shows life is full of twist and turns.
I am glad, I did enter the forum before you left.
I am glad after all this time we still talk.
I am thankful that I have found somebody who cares and loves me.
I just feel as if everything between has been a sweet dream.
Within a few days, I will finally meet you in person.
I am nervous.
What if I am not what you're looking for?
What if you're not what I'm looking for?
What if this was all just a sweet dream which has no place in reality?
What if I like you but don't want to be with you?
What if you like me and I don't like you?
What if I like you and you don't like me?
What if we have a communication problem?
What if you fall in love with somebody else?
What if you only like the idea of me as a person?
What if I only like the idea of you as a person?
What if you don't think I'm pretty?
What if you don't think I'm smart enough?
What if we hate each other?
What if nothing happens between us?
What if we are not fated to meet?
What if I'm not the one?
I would love to disregard the what if, however, I know these what if either make or break relationships.
I'm just scared.
Saturday, May 30, 2009
Making The Love!
The first five (5) people to respond to this post will get something made by me.
This offer does have some restrictions and limitations so please read carefully:
1. I make no guarantees that you will like what I make. What you get is what you get.
2. What I create will be just for you, with love, or at least with gusto.
3. It'll be done this year (2009).
4. I will not give you any clue what it's going to be. It (probably) will be something made in the real world and not something cyber. It may be weird or beautiful. It might or might not be edible. I may even create something totally unbelievable and surprise you at work!! Who knows?
5. I reserve the right to do something strange or quirky, but I promise not to embarrass you in public. I also reserve the right to do something fairly predictable and boring, but with, you know, thought and love.
6. In return, all you need to do is post this text into a note of your own and make 5 things for the first 5 to respond to your note.
This offer does have some restrictions and limitations so please read carefully:
1. I make no guarantees that you will like what I make. What you get is what you get.
2. What I create will be just for you, with love, or at least with gusto.
3. It'll be done this year (2009).
4. I will not give you any clue what it's going to be. It (probably) will be something made in the real world and not something cyber. It may be weird or beautiful. It might or might not be edible. I may even create something totally unbelievable and surprise you at work!! Who knows?
5. I reserve the right to do something strange or quirky, but I promise not to embarrass you in public. I also reserve the right to do something fairly predictable and boring, but with, you know, thought and love.
6. In return, all you need to do is post this text into a note of your own and make 5 things for the first 5 to respond to your note.
Wednesday, April 15, 2009
Bitter Depression
I wrote this story a few months ago, I never realised how much this story means to me. Perhaps, this story offers an insight into my character.
Irony: Some people spend their whole life trying to find their source of happiness, however, little do they know, happiness comes from their heart.
“BEEP!” “BEEP!” There goes my alarm on this depressingly cold winter morning. Every morning I wake up to a dead and lifeless house, there’s no green plants lurking around, no annoying song birds chirping in the morning and everything is quiet. Silence isn’t the key to happiness; I’m still on my mission to save myself and to find my happiness. I’ve been on this mission for years.
I once thought the reason for my unhappiness was my family. A mother, who doesn’t speak proper English; she constantly screams and nags. A mother, who nags you for everything that is imperfect about her life, complains about the state of the house and blames you for all the misfortunes that occur in her life. A father who is a coward - he hides his thoughts, fearing the consequences of revealing his thoughts and constantly fails to see faults in his wife. A father, who is a great husband, however, he is a horrible father. A sister who is too obsessed with her perfectly manicured nails, she fails to see that there’s more to life then her manicure. A family with completely different personalities, a family unit that is too dysfunctional to function.
“OUCH!” I just burnt my finger using this old kettle. If William was here, he would have given me an icepack. William was my ex boyfriend, I broke up with him because he was clearly out of my league. He loved me too much, he cared for me too much and I was constantly insecure. However, there were many things in our relationship that prevented us to be together. I miss his tender touch and how he would whisper soft and sweet words into my ear and how he would sneak up on me. For once in my life, I found somebody I love but I ruined it. The long and enduring fights that went on, how I wanted him to find somebody better and I always found faults in him.
“Oh no,” It’s eight; I’ll be late for work. Another day of the same old same, a job where no changes take place and everything repeats itself. Every morning I question my purpose in life. Every morning I come to the same conclusion, I am here to live. I start to see my mission to save her (my) world. I’m slowly sinking into misery and depression. I currently have nothing to live for.
*BANG!* A quick white light flashed before me. I wake up, white cotton bandages are around my forehead, and plaster covered both my arms and legs and I wore a neck-brace to keep my neck straight. This is definitely an awkward position to be in. The man, wearing a white laboratory coat came into the room. Dr Kew informed me, what happened, what’s happening and what will happen. Dr Kew, said bones in my arm and leg are broken and they’ll heal. I can resume my normal every day activities. However, they one thing that will change is I will not be able to walk due to a spinal injury.
How can anybody be happy when they find out they will spend the rest of their life in a wheel chair? I’ve decided to quit my job in fear of embarrassment, I didn’t inform my family about my condition, I knew that they wouldn’t give a rats and I don’t have any friends who I can talk to.
I was doing this alone, I spent many hours crying and sobbing. I felt sorry for myself, I’ve tried starving myself to control parts of my life, I’ve tired inflicting pain on myself and I’ve tried to end my life but I couldn’t do it. I was a complete coward. Eventually, my days became weeks and the weeks become months since I left the house. My food supply was running low; I needed to visit the supermarket. I gathered up all my courage and I decided to leave the house to buy some food.
A young man approached me, “Are you Emily?” I replied yes, my name is Emily. “How did you know my name?”
“My name is Billy; I’m your younger brother.”
“Mum, dad, older sister and William talk a lot about you. However, they never mentioned you were disabled”
“Let me guess, mum kept telling you, I’ve been a bad kid. Dad probably didn’t say anything and agreed with mum, older sister thought I was annoying and leaving the house was for the best and William probably talked about how stupid I’ve been.”
“Emily, how can you think those things? Mum has praying for a long time for you to return home, dad’s mental state is deteriorating because he regrets not being a better father, older sister has tried long and hard trying to locate you and William, he helps older sister, he has been crying since the day you left.”
Was Billy telling the truth? How does he know such much about my past?
I woke up back in the hospital again, this time Dr Kew delivered more bad news. Due to my poor diet and lack of sunlight, I was diagnosed with cancer in the last stage. I only had a month to live. After, I received the bad news, I received visitors, and it was my mother, father, sister, brother and William. My family hugged me and apologised for all their mistakes and I never realised much they once loved me. I failed to see their affection but now I can see their affection clearly. My family supported me mentally through to my final days.
“Emily, I know you don’t have long to live but you’re the best thing that has happened to me. I’ve missed you dearly. Emily, would you take my hand in marriage?”
Dear William, I loved you very much. My heart belongs to you. I don’t have long to live so I’ve decided you’ll need to forget about me and start a new life.
“William, I love you dearly but I wouldn’t accept your offer. I’ll be gone soon, you’ll need to forget about me and start over again.”
My final words:
“I’ve spent my whole life trying to find happiness; in the end I’m dissatisfied. Happiness comes within ones self. Happiness is the light in a dark room, the light that guides us throughout life. When the light becomes dim, reignite the light yourself. You are responsible for your own happiness. Just don’t waste your life, like I did.”
Irony: Some people spend their whole life trying to find their source of happiness, however, little do they know, happiness comes from their heart.
“BEEP!” “BEEP!” There goes my alarm on this depressingly cold winter morning. Every morning I wake up to a dead and lifeless house, there’s no green plants lurking around, no annoying song birds chirping in the morning and everything is quiet. Silence isn’t the key to happiness; I’m still on my mission to save myself and to find my happiness. I’ve been on this mission for years.
I once thought the reason for my unhappiness was my family. A mother, who doesn’t speak proper English; she constantly screams and nags. A mother, who nags you for everything that is imperfect about her life, complains about the state of the house and blames you for all the misfortunes that occur in her life. A father who is a coward - he hides his thoughts, fearing the consequences of revealing his thoughts and constantly fails to see faults in his wife. A father, who is a great husband, however, he is a horrible father. A sister who is too obsessed with her perfectly manicured nails, she fails to see that there’s more to life then her manicure. A family with completely different personalities, a family unit that is too dysfunctional to function.
“OUCH!” I just burnt my finger using this old kettle. If William was here, he would have given me an icepack. William was my ex boyfriend, I broke up with him because he was clearly out of my league. He loved me too much, he cared for me too much and I was constantly insecure. However, there were many things in our relationship that prevented us to be together. I miss his tender touch and how he would whisper soft and sweet words into my ear and how he would sneak up on me. For once in my life, I found somebody I love but I ruined it. The long and enduring fights that went on, how I wanted him to find somebody better and I always found faults in him.
“Oh no,” It’s eight; I’ll be late for work. Another day of the same old same, a job where no changes take place and everything repeats itself. Every morning I question my purpose in life. Every morning I come to the same conclusion, I am here to live. I start to see my mission to save her (my) world. I’m slowly sinking into misery and depression. I currently have nothing to live for.
*BANG!* A quick white light flashed before me. I wake up, white cotton bandages are around my forehead, and plaster covered both my arms and legs and I wore a neck-brace to keep my neck straight. This is definitely an awkward position to be in. The man, wearing a white laboratory coat came into the room. Dr Kew informed me, what happened, what’s happening and what will happen. Dr Kew, said bones in my arm and leg are broken and they’ll heal. I can resume my normal every day activities. However, they one thing that will change is I will not be able to walk due to a spinal injury.
How can anybody be happy when they find out they will spend the rest of their life in a wheel chair? I’ve decided to quit my job in fear of embarrassment, I didn’t inform my family about my condition, I knew that they wouldn’t give a rats and I don’t have any friends who I can talk to.
I was doing this alone, I spent many hours crying and sobbing. I felt sorry for myself, I’ve tried starving myself to control parts of my life, I’ve tired inflicting pain on myself and I’ve tried to end my life but I couldn’t do it. I was a complete coward. Eventually, my days became weeks and the weeks become months since I left the house. My food supply was running low; I needed to visit the supermarket. I gathered up all my courage and I decided to leave the house to buy some food.
A young man approached me, “Are you Emily?” I replied yes, my name is Emily. “How did you know my name?”
“My name is Billy; I’m your younger brother.”
“Mum, dad, older sister and William talk a lot about you. However, they never mentioned you were disabled”
“Let me guess, mum kept telling you, I’ve been a bad kid. Dad probably didn’t say anything and agreed with mum, older sister thought I was annoying and leaving the house was for the best and William probably talked about how stupid I’ve been.”
“Emily, how can you think those things? Mum has praying for a long time for you to return home, dad’s mental state is deteriorating because he regrets not being a better father, older sister has tried long and hard trying to locate you and William, he helps older sister, he has been crying since the day you left.”
Was Billy telling the truth? How does he know such much about my past?
I woke up back in the hospital again, this time Dr Kew delivered more bad news. Due to my poor diet and lack of sunlight, I was diagnosed with cancer in the last stage. I only had a month to live. After, I received the bad news, I received visitors, and it was my mother, father, sister, brother and William. My family hugged me and apologised for all their mistakes and I never realised much they once loved me. I failed to see their affection but now I can see their affection clearly. My family supported me mentally through to my final days.
“Emily, I know you don’t have long to live but you’re the best thing that has happened to me. I’ve missed you dearly. Emily, would you take my hand in marriage?”
Dear William, I loved you very much. My heart belongs to you. I don’t have long to live so I’ve decided you’ll need to forget about me and start a new life.
“William, I love you dearly but I wouldn’t accept your offer. I’ll be gone soon, you’ll need to forget about me and start over again.”
My final words:
“I’ve spent my whole life trying to find happiness; in the end I’m dissatisfied. Happiness comes within ones self. Happiness is the light in a dark room, the light that guides us throughout life. When the light becomes dim, reignite the light yourself. You are responsible for your own happiness. Just don’t waste your life, like I did.”
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