Answers to the what if....

Who knew that you'll be my partner today?
Probably God

What if I am not what you're looking for?
Impossible, he isn't looking for you. He wants you. He would love you unconditionally. Even if, your breathe stinks, you fart constantly and you were the ugliest girl in the world.

What if you're not what I'm looking for?
Impossible, you would love him unconditionally. In the future, you will learn to love him, regardless. You would love him even though he will forget to call you and reply to all your messages on facebook.

What if this was all just a sweet dream which has no place in reality?
If it was simply a sweet dream, it was a dream that was worthwhile.

What if I like you but don't want to be with you?
Then he's just stupid for not wanting you.

What if you like me and I don't like you?
Impossible, you guys already act like an old married couple.

What if I like you and you don't like me?
It's a risk worth taking!

What if we have a communication problem?
Every relationship will at one stage have communication problems and it's up to the couple to sort out these relationship problems.

What if you fall in love with somebody else?
Yes, you will fall in love with somebody else, your little kids.

What if you only like the idea of me as a person?
If he likes the idea of you then he will like you.. stupid!

What if I only like the idea of you as a person?
Read the answer to the question above.

What if you don't think I'm pretty?
Through his eyes you're beautiful even if you're old and saggy.

What if you don't think I'm smart enough?
He won't mind, he's not smart himself. =P

What if we hate each other?
You will hate each other at the beginning and gradually fall madly in love with each other.

What if nothing happens between us?
Then nothing happens between us... duh!

What if we are not fated to meet?
When why are you going to meet each other... duh!

What if I'm not the one?
Who else will be the one stupid!
So what if you're not the one, you can be his love not his one. =P


Answering all these questions makes me feel stupid. =)

Anticipation

We have talked about our highs and lows and shared a piece of our daily life for almost three years. However, it seems as if I have known you my whole life.
Talking to you; I see my past, my present and my future.
A past with my irreversible mistakes, a present which I hope to survive in order to spend my future with you.
Looking back,my memory is flooded with all the different conversations we had.
I remember it was roughly 12 months ago, you told me you feared your life is going to end soon.
I remember all the emotions I felt when you told me and eventually, I cried.
I cried because I never had a chance to meet you and I can not imagine my life without you.
Your nurturing nature and your words of wisdom has assisted me in the past.

Who knew that you'll be my partner today?
I never would have imagined it but this just shows life is full of twist and turns.
I am glad, I did enter the forum before you left.
I am glad after all this time we still talk.
I am thankful that I have found somebody who cares and loves me.

I just feel as if everything between has been a sweet dream.
Within a few days, I will finally meet you in person.
I am nervous.
What if I am not what you're looking for?
What if you're not what I'm looking for?
What if this was all just a sweet dream which has no place in reality?
What if I like you but don't want to be with you?
What if you like me and I don't like you?
What if I like you and you don't like me?
What if we have a communication problem?
What if you fall in love with somebody else?
What if you only like the idea of me as a person?
What if I only like the idea of you as a person?
What if you don't think I'm pretty?
What if you don't think I'm smart enough?
What if we hate each other?
What if nothing happens between us?
What if we are not fated to meet?
What if I'm not the one?

I would love to disregard the what if, however, I know these what if either make or break relationships.
I'm just scared.