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Tuesday, May 27, 2008

I've got nothing compared to you

Let's all face it, there's a point in everybody's life when we start to realise we've got nothing.
There's somebody out there who's hotter and smarter then you.
Then you try to reason, maybe you've got more supportive friends.
Stop fooling yourself. You know she's better then you in every way possible and you have nothing compared to her.

You try hard pretending your life is better compared to her but honestly, your life smells.

She makes you look like a stupid fool at whatever you attempt.
She's there to steal your thunder, she's better then you in fields which make you unique.
She likes the same boy as you, he likes her more then you.
She's wealthy off, she and her family never has to worry about money flow.
You bust your bottom off, trying to improve and you're only 10% of what she is.
You pretend that more people like you but honestly, everybody will chose her over you.
Therefore, you suck!
You're shit, you got nothing compared to her.

Wednesday, May 14, 2008

Public Transport

Over the past 5 months, I've spent almost a hundred dollars on public transport; approx. 20 dollars per month. The down side is I don't use public transport on a daily basics.

Another annoying thing is buses are never on time. I'm late for work because they either come too early or they are too late.

A one way ticket within my local area is enough to buy 2 cans of coke.

The reason why I can't save is because I use public transport. *mad*

That's it to save money, I'll stop use public transport. The only time I would use public transport is when I need to catch a train apart from that, I'm walking.

Quicky Update

*P.S This entry was suppose to be posted on Weds 14th of May

well I know nobody reads my blog expect maybe 1 person but that's because I make that person read it.



Wednesday 14th of May.

Today there are at least 2 people living in my local area who are celebrating their birthday. It's amazing, one year has past yet it seems as if little has been achieved. However, I have grown in more ways since last year. I would like to share a poem I wrote about a year ago.



Falling Out of Love



It’s times like these you know that you just have to leave.

No point in continuing to pursue a relationship that just won’t work no matter how hard you try and all the effort you put in.

It may seem like I am giving up but actually I am accepting that this won’t work.

The longer I allow myself to love you, the longer I will have to endure the heartache and disappointment.

I am not going to cry because I don’t have you.

I will smile for I have met some one like you.

My days from this point won’t be a fabulous as it used to be however over time it will improve.

I might never find a boy like you but I am determined to find one that loves me more than you. In my heart that’s where you shall be just like all the other boys I have loved before you.

The only thing that I will keep from this relationship is all the times we spent together.

All the smiles, laughter, tears and heartache will one day seem like a lifetime ago from today.

Our relationship will not end with a tear or a goodbye.

Our relationship will end when we both find our happiness.

Goodbye, my lover.

For I have found my happiness that is witnessing the beauties of this world.

Goodbye until we meet again.



Here's something I wrote today



A Year Ago,

Many months spent holding onto the feelings kept telling myself I should let go.

Never truly released the pain and memories until today.

Many plans constructed and many failed along the way.

Too afraid of pain, the fear held me back from restarting.

Restarting wasn't as simple as clicking a few buttons, it was learning to place memories in their rightful place and accepting the broken pieces.

A fresh start was just around the corner, neglicted, for fear was much stronger.

Another 12 months, another 52 weeks, another 356 days have past.

The numbers grow greater, the love shrinks and the distance grows greater.

Today, a year one, I have grown in many ways, too bad you couldn't see the changes.

Thursday, May 8, 2008

Feeling sick without being sick

Currently I feel a tad sick however I'm not sick.

I hate being in this state. I'm starting to feel sick but I'm not sick enough to stop everything I do.
I can still get up and out of bed in the morning but somethings some parts of my body aches or flu symptoms.

When I told my friend how I'm feeling they all looked at me as if I'm a retard.

I feel sick because I don't feel 100% but I'm not sick to the point where I need to take a day off school.

Saturday, May 3, 2008

sweet love or insanity?

Recently, I have expressed my interest on a boy. The boy is taller, older and stronger then I.
The boy has light brown hair which are constantly curly. His face is warmer then his heart.
All our conversations take place around the dodgy sink and are interrupted by annoying chickens.

My memory is performs as well as spiders swimming in water. I couldn't believe it when I remember the boy's mobile number off by heart. A friend of mine told me this type of behaviour is cute. I chose to differ, I believe it is, this kind of behaviour that leds people onto insanity.